One of my biggest accomplishments has been graduating college. I’m usually the type of person that when I set my mind to something, I am going to get it done. No matter what it takes or how long it takes. Regardless of the many ups and downs and the years that it took, I did it. It is actually pretty crazy because when I was single and had no kids I was enjoying my college experience by making new friends and partying but my grades were not the best. I had a “C” average during those first years of college. When I became pregnant with my firstborn, it seemed nearly impossible to juggle school, work, and dealing with my all day morning sickness. I also made up several excuses, I was doing bad in most of the classes that I was enrolled in during that time, so I decided to drop all my classes. This was already past the withdrawal date so dropping would of course also have a negative effect on my average. I felt like such a complete failure because I felt like the stereotypical young Mexican girl who got pregnant at an early age (21 yrs old) and I hadn’t even finished college or accomplished any of the goals I had set for myself.
My husband and I are married through the courthouse. However, I am currently planning our Catholic wedding ceremony and reception for next year. I started wedding planning 15 months in advance and Alex thought I was crazy! Of course I had to explain to him that since we are planning a destination wedding it was best that I started planning way in advance. It has been extremely stressful. From choosing the destination location, to choosing an affordable wedding package, and to agreeing on our wedding guest list. It’s so complicated. Of course for Alex it is as simple as not having anyone there but both ourselves and both our families and he’s happy. Unfortunately it’s not that simple. I’ve been planning all the big things that I hadn’t really thought of all the little things. Those little things that are actually very important. The little things are the things that we are always going to remember and are those things that we are going to have locked in our memories and hearts forever and ever.
My struggle to be fit is real. I have never really worked out, honestly because I never felt I had to before. Growing up I went through a skinny, chunky, skinny, and back to chunky phase. Currently I am working at being fit and maintaining this fit lifestyle. During both of my pregnancies I had the worst morning sickness ever. I literally stayed nauseous and vomited all day long. As a matter of fact it was so bad that I lost about a total of 20 lbs during each pregnancy. Which I was glad because I was already not in the best shape before I got pregnant. Even though I lost all that weight my stomach still stretched to its maximum (imagine my daughter was 9lbs and my son was 8lbs).
Being a mother and wife is wonderful. I felt such a huge responsibility having the titles of mother and wife that I dedicated everything, my whole life really. I entirely gave up my social life including the majority of friends that I had. I stopped going out with my girlfriends because I felt guilty going out without my husband or kids. I felt people would judge me and think I was a bad mother, I actually believed I would be a bad mother if I went out with the purpose of having a good time for myself. I was always thinking of the negative things that could happen. This is truly one of the biggest regrets that I have.